Others, I hope will understand why sometimes the circles under my eyes are so dark, or why I may seem preoccupied...
What would you do...... if you noticed marks on your child's body like this?
Now.....what if the marks were self-inflicted?
No matter how seasoned I become as a parent, SIBs (Self Injurious Behaviors) are still one of the most heart-wrenching things for me to witness. This is not the first time for us, nor is it the last, but it never gets easier no matter how many times you bear witness to your child self harming.
Jaysen's frustration and anxiety, coupled with his inability to self-regulate, create an emotional abattoir to which the only acceptable release is to launch into a physical attack on himself. Usually the incidents are short-lived, but with repeated blows, he carries the bruises for days, if not weeks.
My heart carries the trauma much longer.
The part that tears me apart is, I am utterly helpless. I can't help him. I can't stop him. I can't make it better, or take the pain away. I can only try to keep him safe at the time. Try to make sure there is as minimal damage inflicted as possible.
Because I know I am not alone in dealing with this...
Extra love to you all dealing with the same.