Tuesday, May 11, 2010

It's getting dark in here.

I can't seem to find the time lately, to stay up on posting.
I read all of your blogs, yet can't find the energy to make entries on this one.

There's a lot of things going on now- most of them not very good.
For example, my kids have been abducted by aliens and replaced with sassy, back-talking, fighting, aggressive heathens. Jaysen is losing his freakin' mind and Rylan is following in the footsteps of his big brother.

Jaysen is obsessed with getting a Gameboy Color, now.
Apparently, he neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeds one.
Or he may die.
Or hate me for life.

He has a Wii and a DS, so said child is by no means deprived.
The Gameboy is relatively cheap (used), but I have no idea how much the games are.
The kicker is, he just wants it for one game.
Mario something-or-other.
That he has for the DS, but it's available for a Gameboy, so now he wants to play it on a Gameboy.

I do not want to purchase a Gameboy just so he can play this one game.

Reason number two is, The Games? They bring out The Crazy in him.
If he is playing a game and something doesn't go as planned, this boy will Lose.His.Shit.
He's going to give himself a stroke.

He starts tantrumming, redfaced, screaming, tears, jumping up and down like the Holy Ghost is in him, and becomes self-injurious and destructive. He's even starting to leave bruises on his face from the SIBs. And they're way more intense than before.

It's not a typical Jaysen-ASD-style-Tantrum though. These are quick. Almost out of nowhere. An intense burst of raw anger. So much anger. So out of control.
It's not only no fun, it's scary.
I know it's coming from somewhere- that he's trying to tell me something that I'm just not connecting with- but I'm at such a loss.

He's also been acting out in school, destroying things when he gets angry or upset, so it's pretty much across the board, and not just at home.

The only thing I got for Mother's Day, was a painting he did in school.
Yesterday, he ripped it to shreds because I told him he needed to calm down if he wanted to continue his Wii game.

Nice, thanks.

My hand is killing me.
You cannot even imagine how much this nerve damage stuff hurts.
So now I have to deal with The Crazy, on top of The Frankenhand.

I am holding fast to the idea that there is someone out there who has a voodoo doll of me, and is abusing the hell out of it.

If you see them, please poke them with sticks until they stop.
I would totally do it for you.


Niksmom said...

Oof! I've got my sticks at the ready and am keeping my eyes open...

mommy~dearest said...

Thanks, Niksmom! You're just the one I want having my back! :)

kristi said...

OMG< Tc is the same way playing games...ugh. Hugs!! I know how you feel.

Tanya @ TeenAutism said...

Your hand is killing me too! Mine hurts just thinking about it. Hope it heals soon!

Ashley's Mom said...

Drink heavily - at least for a short while everything will be ok :)

MunchkinMama said...

I'm a new follower to you blog, so forgive me if you've covered this already. And I realize you're just venting and not really asking for advice, but...my dd would have uncontrollable outbursts of anger over very minor things before we cut out artificial colors from her diet. Just a thought.
~Good Luck.

Joeymom said...

I saw someone with a doll that vaguely looked like you, and just in case there was confusion in voo-doo world, my sticks and I got to work. I'm going to put the doll in a nice hot tub with a big glass of wine. Just in case.

TherExtras said...

Entirely willing to thwart all practicers of m~d torture!

mommy~dearest said...

Thank you all! And I heart you, Joeymom...

LAA and Family said...

I hope it all gets better soon... Oh my gosh I can so relate to the "electronic" game obsession your son is going through, we have a similar thing going on here.

Marshella said...

OMG... Deklan just got a Gameboy Color. The "color" kind of sucks on the gameboy, but someone gave it to him. Unfortunately they did not give him any games. Ebay was a really good source for games - you can probably get a decent Gameboy too. I got 11 games for less than $35 dollars including shipping/handling. Just a thought.